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Saturday, April 4th, 2009
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Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
5:32 pm	idk if she reads anymore so haha life recently: i've been drawing a lot more. finally developed a signature char, his name is coathanger bill. he's a coathanger with a tophat and a lot of guns. a lot of guns. a lot. i went over lauren's the other day. i think you all know how i feel about her. i just wish i could see her every day somehow. once every 4 days? idk about that, shit.. but she's a busy girl & i dont want her to think i'm moving in or some shit. see this thing where i cant see her every day just makes me want to stay with her longer, and suddenly its like 8 hours with her alone isnt enough. i feel... distant. that's not how i want to feel. i just want to be with her.. Current Mood: crappy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
10:21 pm	you looked so beautiful today Current Mood: ecstatic (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 19th, 2004
2:48 am	moving journals. this one is REALLY ugly & reminiscent. IM me or comment if you want the new one. its very sexy, i promise you. Current Mood: accomplished
Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
9:49 am	lol how do you write about somebody when you -know- they read your journal? its like telling them to their face.. idk, i'm head over heels for this girl tho. she hugs me n she kisses me on the cheek n i just feel like she's crazy about me. and that's all i was looking for this whole time. someone who would return the feeling.. silver horses ran down moonbeams in your dark eyes.. Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
11:15 am	debo'd from something, i forgot where 01. Are you male or female?: ---- Basic Dawn - Pure Thrust 02. Describe yourself: ---- DJ Scot Project - Club Bizarre 03. How do some people feel about you?: ---- Chemical Brothers - Freak of the Week 04. How do you feel about yourself?: ---- DJ Tiesto - Lord of Trance 05. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend/interest: ----DJ Special K - Spiritual Ecstasy 06. Where would you rather be?: ----DJ Tiesto - Close to You 07. Describe what you want to be: ----Tiesto - Dreaming 08. Describe how you live: ----Chemical Brothers - Out of Control 09. Describe how you love: ----PVD - Nothing But You 10. Share a few words of wisdom: ----Arome - Scream! Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 14th, 2004
10:35 pm	Like all things Spanish, it is dangerous. <3 Current Mood: equilibrium ;) (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 12th, 2004
8:14 pm	people agitate me in a very powerful sense. however, i have vented to lauren, and thus will not discuss. this would have just been one of those posts where i make fun of many certain cliche stereotypes of people. Current Mood: annoyed (Comment on this)
Friday, February 6th, 2004
6:16 pm	what can i do to make it right? falling so hard so fast this time what did i say, what did you do? how did i fall in love with you? Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
5:43 pm	my LJ should just be www.machineofpain.com Name : myke DDR Name : anyone who has a DDR name is a homo Age: 16 Level : heavy, 9-11s. lol. How long have you been playing? : on and off for like 3-4 years. Do you own it at home? : yes. Favorite... Place to play at : in my basement, or SBA, even though the left pad is fucked up. Song : lol.. max's. Slow song : Shining Polaris Fast song : MAX 300. Nonstop/Oni : adrenaline? nonstop, stamina tester? oh and legend road. you know i can AAAA that shit. Misc... Greatest accomplishment : 6 greats MAX 300. Current goal : shoving how good i was in luis' face, then actually backing it up (LOL) Shoe size : 12 or something Do you dance besides on DDR? : yes. Kind of pad you own : some sick wireless shit that's gonna be modded real soon. debo'd from that ugly chick that steve knows. that wasn't as cool as i thought it was gonna be. aGodPower: i love silk toilette paper aGodPower: its like wiping your ass with silk (Comment on this)
Monday, January 26th, 2004
11:22 pm	its completely gone. i think this is what happens when i talk to people, and when i really want to make them feel better and just by being myself and being a fucking happy motherfucker that they end up becoming happy. i love it, i really do. i wish i could do it for a living, because it just bolsters me higher. Current Mood: happy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
2:37 pm	hmmmm. things are confusing right now. i think its strange however that i am able to feel a deep sorrow at the same time as i enjoy myself, and my life, and the people, and this is enjoyment. this is adolescence, this is enjoying life. smokin pot at 1 AM while its so fucking cold you cant feel your tongue, or your face, goin home and eating two bags of fritos and playin smash with steve. fun. but... here i am, deep down inside, very deep down, somewhere in some pool of darkness is something that is very upset. some little boy that just wants, craves attention, that wants to be freed and to be loved and held and embraced and enjoyed, to exist without worry or quarrel, independant from the lack of grace and honor in the world. true bliss? is that what it will take to make him happy? i suppose even then i would find some excuse to be sad. like, noone to enjoy it with. something gay like that. fuck man, why must our existance be compromised at all times? hmmmm MAYBE I'm just compromising MYSELF, because of my overwhelming hate for social situations. but its always so fuckin awkward. i think i'm going to try to be more social. damn, these journals are like a fucking therapist or something. Current Mood: creative (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 17th, 2004
12:22 pm	i dont care what anyone says, dipping your donut is a skill in fact, that's probably what the courses consist of in police academy.... maybe i'll take it just so i dont spill my milk over my desk anymore. (Comment on this)
Monday, January 12th, 2004
10:06 pm	hmm.. rereading that last post makes me want to cry (or just makes me feel really bad). i guess we all get the blues sometimes, it kinda wells up within you after you resist it for so long. well, i told my mother i was ----v, and of course, she was always helpful in bloating my ego and whatnot. she talked to me about some things, like good people always make crazy mistakes but the mistakes are easily forgiven, and bad people are just good people who werent able to stay good. it was off-topic from what i was thinking about, but it was kind of an inspiration to stop being mopey. looking back i cant comprehend why i wanted to sleep or to run away from everything. why would i run away when i've got so much here..? i'm a fucking retard sometimes. by the by, krissy, thanks for the comment. it actually inspired me to continue this up. for some reason i want to have this undaunting image of joy in front of everyone i know. i slipped up and i guess you caught me on the way down. much <3 Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
1:12 am	hmn.. as i sit here at 1:13 AM on a very early monday morning, i share with you, the reader, my thoughts. lately i've been contemplating dying. death, a release? i wouldn't say it would be a release so much as an ending. i have nothing to be released from. no torture or no sickening hatred or depression or deep dark evil seed buried deep within my heart, but i dont really want my life as it is going to continue. it sucks, frankly. i never really wanted to get old and grow up, become bald and fat and do nothing but socialize about the weather. but who does? who would trade the life of someone young for someone old? i read somewhere that usually when people dont want to get older its because they dont feel they accomplished anything while they were younger. maybe i sit alone in my room too often, or do the same thing too often, or persist with this life with no variation whatsoever save for the date and my schedule at school too often. maybe death would be a release....from monotony. maybe i shouldnt have let go of some of the old things i let go of, maybe i should have clinged to them vainly, tried to keep them alive because i know deep down i'm too scared shitless to go and find something else new. i was scared the first time and now here i am without any of it, even more scared that when i overcome the fear there will just be the fear of losing that accomplishment -- the overcoming. maybe i'll wake up tomorrow at square one, just where i was before i started comprehending, before i overcame all the fear and became an optimistic person. or maybe i'll wake up and i'll be at square -zero-, maybe i'll be too scared to even try to overcome the fear and i'll just rot internally.. maybe i wont even wake up tomorrow. maybe a fire will burn down my house and i'll turn to ash, or maybe an earthquake will crush the house, or the sun will explode and leave the entire world so cold that i cant even feel this lack of want and this fear anymore. maybe i'll just wake up the same as i was this morning at 1:23 AM, or maybe i'll wake up changed and maybe i'll look forward to the day and seeing the people i really care about and all that funness. maybe i wont care that in a few years i'll probably be bald and fat and i'll have nothing to socialize about but the weather. not maybe. hopefully. hopefully tomorrow will change what i feel today, because if i feel like i do today anymore i wont want to live. Current Mood: scared (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003
3:37 pm	Things I hate about Livejournal: communities. people turn them into some sort of elitist branch of people or some shit like WTF. i lost my train of thought on this one, but i'm just glad they dont have diary reading societies in real life like this because faggots who write with perfect grammar and punctuation would think they're better than everyone else. kids who write a summary of themselves based on their mood. ok hear me out on this one. i just read a bunch of livejournals where it's like "NEW ME OMFG THIS WILL BE SWEET I WILL TAKE DA WORLD ON!!" then the next day they hate themselves and want to slit their wrists. they're emotional rollercoasters or some shit. they fuckin feed off drama like a heroin addiction. staten island is a small island, so everyone pretty much knows everyone. OH THE MOTHERFUCKIN DRAMA. christ it's haneous. and i can't go like a day without getting an IM from some faggot dumbass who thinks they know who the fuck i am because they heard my last name from some shitlick who's name i dont even remember anymore. i'm not even in a bad mood, i just feel like cursing. i really need some real life human interaction soon or else i'm going to turn into a masturbation machine that plays Gunbound all day. by the way, this may be crushing news to anyone who reads it..but I am no longer a ninja!!!! yes it's true, and a burden on the heart, but one may no longer refer to me as ninja myke. the main motivation behind this is the fact that stephen's sister IMed me the other day telling me about how she wants to be a ninja because all her friends boyfriends are ninjas and she wants to fight them or some shit. FUCK THAT MESS. i'm gonna be a pirate now, cuz i just can't stand the sound of ninja without that tang of OG it once carried. so, captain myke of the S.S. raverceptor....or rave-n's claw, or something along that lines (someone help me with a good rave boat name) it is. now then. you stop readin muh journal n i won't cut cha neck open, savvy? Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 11th, 2003
10:51 pm	debo'd from fers BASICS +name: Myke. +best feature: i dunno.. i actually dont want to fill this out cuz people call me conceited all the time. 8) +first crush: this chick in the 8th grade once, she was short and really hot. i think i was in like 6th grade. i didn't know what grade she was in and i was all man i hope she's in 7th grade so i can see her again for a whole year. lol i never actually talked to her.. +piercings: none +boyfriend/girlfriend now : no +# of times heart broken: never broken..maybe just hurt a lil. WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX +worst thing to say: i wouldn't know it off hand.. just put me in the situation +hearts i have broken: uh prolly a few but neither of the parties would admit it. 8). +# of guys i have kissed: so how does this work with chicks..do they just answer it like it's not a gay question or what +what were u doing 15 mins ago: playin dark age of camelot (i'm a hypocrite for laughing at turner for playing it) +what are u wearing now: Pajamas and a shirt that says "A Pirate's Life For Me" with a pirate flag on it +u shy or outgoing: i dunno. i'm outgoing until someone pisses me off. then i supress my rage until i'm driven to beat someone. +sleep with stuffed animals: sometimes. +feature you notice first: skin color? +looks/personality: 50/50 +tan or fair: depends on the person i guess? +would you ever date a friend: yeah sure. FAVORITES +color : um.. hard to say.. the sort of crazy dark twilight blue on a really clean sky is sick. +thing to do: come from another place, witness another race. here is the place of my birth.. i've atoned, i'm back to earth +ocean or pool: pool.. fucking salt +favorite movie: Fight Club, The Matrix Trilogy, American History X, uh.. +love or lust: both. +silver or gold: gold +diamonds or pearls: diamonds +showers or baths: showers. +food: french fries +holiday: christmas +animal: WTF.. i dont know, your mom in the sack +drink: iced tea, kool aid mix +perfume: whale vomit +cologne: lol i'm pure bred shower fresh nigga +fruit: yes you are +Room In house: mine +Type of music: trance +Memory: lol there's a lot of 'em. +Day of the Week: i dont know why everyone likes friday so much.. you still have to work on friday +Flower: carnIGGElian (that sounds hilarious if you say it outloud) +Month: July, December -- days with least school +Season: winter +Location for dates: hmm.. i dunno. people need places on dates where you can have fun but also have sex somewhere immediately nearby.. HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU +cried when someone died: yeah, sometimes people i dont even know +drank alcohol: yeah, it tastes fuckin gross +smoked: yeah +lied: uh lol +fallen for ur best friend: no.. that'd be kinda queer. +rejected someone: yeah. +used someone: yup. +been cheated on: yes. +cheated on someone: kind of, but it was a long time ago, when i thought i was gunna die +done something u regret: lol yeah +obsessive: two words: jessie leigh +could u live without the computer?: no +trust others way too easily: no +Gotten in a fight: um lol yea.. people are scared of me when i yell +Been to New York?: hahahaha.. he put "Nope". its funny cuz we live here. +Been to Florida?: yeah +California?: no +Hawaii?: no +Mexico?: i think i rid on that ride once.. +China?: that would be fuckin sick +where would you love to travel to?: japan or to another solar system.. how sick would that be +whats ur middle name?: tom +what are you scared of: mortality. +do u believe in angels?: de la cookie cutter. i wish i could believe in anything like that +if i could see one person right now: trist man.. i had this big doofy grin on my face when i met him, i couldnt resist...he's my boy +i dream about: are you i dream about? yes. DO YOU +play an instrument: i'm interested in djing +like the taste of alcohol: no +go to church: yes every day +have any secrets: many. like the above. dont tell anyone, but its actually true... +like sarcasm: yea. you think i'm bad now, you should see me high +sing in the shower: yeah sometimes. that song strangers in the night +cried because of someone saying something to u: yeah. Do you cried because of someone saying something to u -^ +color ur hair: did once. my scalp is stained purkle +flowers or candy: candy. CANDY YOU FAG WHO +makes u laugh the most? derek, steve +makes you smile: jessie leigh +gives u a funny feeling when u see them: +Do you have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: the hotter of the two girls. +Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: always. +Are You Lonely Right Now: me, my hand and my johnson +Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: yea. +Do You Want To Get Married: yea +Do You Want Kids: i'm settin up franchises. +Red or blue?: blue +Spring or fall?: spring +Santa or Rudolph?: rudolph...something about deer makes me feel really weird inside +Math or English?: math.. in english, people can always say that you can write better. in math there is a definite answer to everything +What are you going to do after you finish this survey?: i refer you to the loneliness question +High school or college: um.. my favorite? i dont know, i'm not in college +Are you bored?: yeah but not really +How many buddies are on?: 19. +Last movie you saw?: pirates of the caribbean. awesome movie +Last noise you heard?: seinfeld +Things you like in a girl/guy: blonde hair, blue eyes, but its nothing without intelligence, so naturally i've destroyed any hopes i'll ever have at a relationship +What's on your mouse pad?: my mouse you fuckin dick +Favorite magazine?: playboy, victoria secret, etc +Worst feeling in the world?: the perfect opportunity slipping through your damn fingers. +What is the first thing you think when you wake up: women +Chocolate or vanilla?: chocolate +If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be?: whatever Kramer does +Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous?: i'm a switchhitter, sexy +Location: staten island, new york +College Plans: uh... astrology, medical fields +Are You Timely or Always Late: always running late, always on time +like Being around People: always. IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU +Cried: almost +Bought Something: yeah +Talked To Someone: yes. +Had A Serious Talk: nope. +Kissed Someone: nope. FINAL QUESTIONS +i want: some ass +i wish: i had a million wishes +i love: tylenol cold +i miss: that feelin' of love.. tellin' someone i want to marry em under an icicle arch n shit +i fear: becoming fat +i wonder: what my mom thinks of me Current Mood: nostalgic (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 7th, 2003
12:05 am	fucking LJ erased my shit. in short, i'm going to remake my life. due to my sense of overwhelming pride, i'm throwing away old baggage and i think i'm going to start anew. but i don't know how i'm going to do this.. i really don't. Current Mood: they need a thiefy mood (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 2nd, 2003
1:52 am	i want her in my arms... Current Mood: clandestine (Comment on this)